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答应给菱儿看的：

迷失
by HeartString 2004.1.11

你说你不喜欢喀斯特求变的性格
你说你不喜欢芳华绝代的凋零
你说你不欣赏鬼斧神工的宠溺
你说你看不惯戈戈紫燕的浓郁
你说你不忍舞袖盈楼的多娇
你说你厌恶红玫瑰的招摇

你说你只欣赏泪影凝艳的凄美
你说你只欣赏白玫瑰的妩媚
你说你想守住流星瞬间的永恒
你说你沉醉于满天星的虚无飘渺
你说你喜欢娇苗平湖的沉泯

你说你经不住百合的纯情
你说钢琴曲会搅乱你的心境
你说香消玉陨只是淡淡的忧伤

你说你爱银河天降的落差
你说你爱赫赫绿野的争馥竞秀
你说你不怕消亡
你说这是爱的真谛
你说这是你的方式

忙了整整十二个春秋，高度紧张了十二年的神经始终不曾容得一丝怠

慢。依稀记得，那时偶尔累了便随便抽出一张试卷，在背面记下此刻的

心情...无论多忙...如此坚持了下来，直到高三，被警告写诗在高考中

是不被允许的。于是，我发誓永不写诗。直到现在，我却发现自己不会

写了，麻木得不会记下自己的心情......

现在终于觉得，这是件多么可怕的事。

自然地，我也收到了EMS大叔亲自送来的录取通知书，也许在他接触

的所有考生中，我是唯一一个以苦瓜脸相向的吧，因为这不是我心仪的

地方，甚至我叫它是个让人心碎的地方。拿着大红底色的通知书，看着

上面跳动的文字，真有一种说不出的冲动，不是委屈，也不是懊恼，是

说不出来的感觉。真希望这一切只是在做梦，然而我清楚地知道，这是

事实，无法改变，但是我必须去适应这一切。

高考的结果也许不是最可怕的，但因为它改变自己的生活方式对于我

来说却是太可怕的一件事。前几天，终于鼓起勇气捡起十二年的残骸，

该卖的卖，该尘封的留给十二年后的我。无意中，我发现了那些让我搁

浅的曾经记录过我心情的文字，那种感觉真得很美妙。

高考让我知道了付出不一定等于收获，然而，我又相信有失必有得。

只是，我需要一双手，一个肩膀，来托起我心中的希望。

在这里，我把我曾经的心情贴出来，希望它们能唤醒我沉睡的心灵。

Snowdream

by HeartString

I was just about to see how shining it was

I was just wondering how tiny I used to be

Yet you suddenly filled me with joy

Not letting me prepare

I was looking for you, my dear angel

I was intended to see how charming I was

Yet you'd been always breaking the silence

breaking my last breath

I'd like to fly, high up in the sky

I'd like to dive, down into the sea

floating with the kite

swimming with the dolphin

You're my jealousy, my delicious princess

And there I stand, you've been killing my last desire of leaving
But for your response, I just stand there, waiting
Yet you never come

I've lost myself in your ruination
Yet you never make it out
I bear your brushing on my cheek
No matter how cruel you've been cheating on me

I couldn't stop myself chasing you
Running with you, I felt like drifting in the heaven
But you were too mean to wait for me
Finally I caught up with you

I buried myself into your smile
I dare not lose you a second time
Yet you never heard me
Leaving me crying, you vanished in my tears

I dare to covet no more
In spite of your delicious smile in my mind
I abandoned myself into whiteness
Not daring to tell you that my heart's bleeding

I prayed for you to the sky
Wondering if you'd tried to survive
I'd pretended to be calm
So as to kill my self-interest from your smile

Unfortunately, I forgot to ask your name
yet the leprechaun struck my eyes
I was carried to a soft coldness
I opened my eyes---I'm with your smile again!